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"you
are
my
fairtyale
that
doesn't
end
at
midnight."
Hello there! My name's Iryn and this is my blog. You can read a lot about me
here - specifically my journals. I like blogging, it helps me relax and it
gives me comfort.
UPDATES
- I've been on hiatus for some time now.
- Most of my recent posts can be found here CLICK.
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- I'm currently enjoying what's left of the summer. Done with summer class.
Waiting for the another school year to begin. :D
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IRYNgrace. seventeen.
college junior.
ADZU, bsn.
Taken. :p
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Friday, February 29, 2008 |
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i'm missing you so much. =c |
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"until you find me, 9:49 AM |
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We're back together, this time its forever. (= |
Sunday, February 17, 2008 |
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Losing him was one of the things I would never want to happen again. It was so tough not having him around. I thank God for bringing him back to me. One thing's for sure, I've never been happier. I'm really positive that this relationship will last through the test of time. Da, we can do this. Let's prove that getting back together is the BEST decision that we made. I keep on loving you more everyday. Slowly, I'm beginning trust you again. I just hope that you won't let me down. I love you. (=
Labels: emotions random realizations spiritual life |
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"until you find me, 11:10 AM |
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Monday, February 11, 2008 |
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He's that one person whom I just can't get enough of. He always excites and thrills me. Whenever he makes me feel loved and shows me his affection, I just couldn't do anything to turn away. But this person has hurt me. He has made me feel foolish and stupid. I hated him. Still, I waited. I wanted everything to be the way it was before. God knows how much I prayed that everything would work out between us. Then I realized that I was already getting tired. I did not hope for anything anymore. I simply wanted to move on.
Its true when they say that you should expect the unexpected. Indeed. I wasn't expecting anything when we started communicating again. We talked. We tried to figure things out together. We told each other how we felt after the break up. I was happy to become in touch with him again and the thought that we were friends, made me feel even better. But there was one thing that I also didn't expect to happen - I was getting weak. The moment he told me that he was sorry for everything and that he still loves me just made my knees go weak. I tried to stop myself. "I mustn't fall for this again. I mustn't." It went on for days. It was beginning to bother me so much. I could not concentrate in school. My mind was somewhere else - it was with him. I slowly became weaker and weaker. I soon came to realize that anger had topped what I truly felt for him. I was still so much in love with him. Now, everything that I have felt for him before has come back. I'm glad we talked things out. I'm glad we were able to make things clear. I know he has hurt me but the love that I feel for him has pushed me to take the risk of loving him once again. I felt the sincerity in every word he was saying. I know I will be risking so much but I don't care. I love him, he loves me and nothing else matters. I don't care what other people may say, let them talk all they want. But I'm still so bothered of how I'm going to explain everything to my friends. They have been so mad at him for doing such thing to me but I want to prove to them that he's really worth every risk that I'm taking now. I hope they would understand me and still be there for me when I need them. Please. I know that this will lead to something better. I want us to forget about the past, and together, we can start a new story and this time, its gonna be forever. I know I won't be regretting anything. But the sad part is - he'll be leaving for America. I know its going to be more difficult but I really want us to go on. We both have to make a lot of sacrifices. We need to trust each other even more. I want our fire to keep on burning even though we would be miles apart. I want us to be one of those couples who have survived being away from each other but still kept the love alive. This experience will make the both of us grow stronger. This will teach us how to become mature. All we need is TRUST, COMMUNICATION and LOVE - and I know that we can make it. (= Of course, we have God with us. I know He'll be there to accompany the both of us in this new journey that we will be taking. =D
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"until you find me, 9:36 PM |
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Wednesday, February 6, 2008 |
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I took the NAT yesterday and honestly, I haven't got the slightest idea what to expect. All I know is that I need to pass and I want to pass. I'm leaving it all up to God.
I got my midterm grades to some of my subjects and I'm so disappointed in myself. How could I have allowed such thing to happen? I don't think I could forgive myself.
My mind was terribly lost during the second semester. It was all out of its system. The break up was the only thing on my mind. I was just too damn depressed and I hated that feeling. I felt so alone. It lead me to neglect my school work. I wasn't myself. I wasn't concentrating at all. I didn't care. My mind was too damn busy thinking about the break up that it forgot I had much more important priorities to attend to! I couldn't imagine how a break up could cause such a mess.
I feel so stupid right now. T.T
Labels: emotions, realizations, school, spiritual life |
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"until you find me, 1:38 AM |
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I'm wishing, hoping, praying that someday, somehow everything that is weighing me down will all go away. Really. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
For all of you with someone special, cherish that person, cherish every single moment that you spend together, for anything can happen anytime. One day, you may regret only to realize that it is too late.
We will be having our Nursing Aptitude Test tomorrow and I'm getting really nervous about it. Once again, I offer everything to God. Wish me luck. =DLabels: emotions school realizations spiritual life |
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"until you find me, 6:59 AM |
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