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Hello there! My name's Iryn and this is my blog. You can read a lot about me
here - specifically my journals. I like blogging, it helps me relax and it
gives me comfort.
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- I'm currently enjoying what's left of the summer. Done with summer class.
Waiting for the another school year to begin. :D
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IRYNgrace. seventeen.
college junior.
ADZU, bsn.
Taken. :p
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today is our ninth month together. its really amazing how we managed getting through with this relationship. and i'm glad everything is working out well. (: nik was every little thing i ever wanted. from the day that i saw him, i never thought about anyone else but him. haha. it may sound cheesy but its true. he turned my world upside down. i couldn't stop thinking about him. it was then i realized that i was in love. i was in love with a stranger. yes, he was just a stranger but he made my head spin round and round, he made my heart leap every time i saw him, he gave me butterflies every time he passed by. he was all over me and i was all over him. my world stopped turning when we became friends. i was really ecstatic. we got to know each other better and i fell more for him everyday. i really wanted to be with him. he meant everything to me. time flew by so fast and we became a couple. i was the happiest girl on earth. we were inseparable. everyday was an adventure with him. (:
and today is our ninth month. i really can't believe it. we've been through a lot of things. and i mean a lot. our relationship was full of twists and turns but we managed to pull through. nik knows me more than anyone else. he's the only one who can make me sad, mad, laugh all at the same time. he means more to me with every passing day and i guess spending nine months with him is enough for me to say that he's worth every risk i took and there isn't a chance for me to regret anything i did.
i love you beyond reason why.
I passed the NAT!(: I went to school yesterday and everything went great(: I'm just so glad to know that God has once again answered my prayers.
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"until you find me, 9:05 AM |
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it's been a while. i missed blogging so much. i have been very busy with school work, i barely had time to do anything. lemme see? where do i start? uhm, so i'm officially on a one-week vacation and it's really not what i had in mind. i was imagining the beach, the sun, sand castles, fruit shakes and all those summer stuff. but no. i'm here, at home. sitting in front of the computer and blogging about how frustrated i am and how bummed i feel right now. *sigh getting back with nik was heaven. it was the best thing that ever happened to me. all my prayers have been answered. i was simply in love with the fact that he was mine and i was his again. he's now in america. it has been very tough without him. i don't know how i managed everyday without seeing him. sometimes, i stop and think about what went into my mind and made me say "yes" to him again. i guess, it was love.
and today is again another one of those days when i feel that i made the biggest mistake of getting back with him. so here i am, blogging. cause like i said, blogging is my way to ease whatever it is that i feel. here goes. ever since i got back with nik, i had become the happiest girl alive. i was on the roll again. i was very much in love with him. but there are times when i get haunted by thoughts from the past. i mean, images come flashing into my mind and it makes me feel really bad. images of how we broke up, his other girl and all those shit. i don't know. i guess i'm still not over all of those shit. but i don't want those to come in between nik and me. i don't want those to ruin our relationship. but i can't help it. whenever i am alone or whenever i think, it all comes into my mind and i am once again bothered by everything. my mood changes, everything about me changes. even how i act towards nik. it just scares me that one day all of those things might happen again. and that's the last thing that i would ever want to happen. it has caused me so much damage. and i mean it. i want everything between me and nik to be okay. i feel that i haven't been a good girlfriend to him. i feel that i have a lot of shortcomings. and it makes me sad. i want to be the best for him. i want him to feel how much i value him. i want him to know how much i love him and how much he means to me. but i don't know. i'm scared. i really am. =c but i've rolled my dice, i chose to be with him and i have to do everything to make it work. i know everything will work out. I TRUST HIM.
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"until you find me, 3:04 PM |
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I feel so weak right now. I'm a nervous wreck. My final grades will be out anytime this week and I haven't got the slightest idea what to expect. I'm really really scared. The NAT results will be out Tuesday, next week. I haven't got anything more to do but to pray. Pray that everything goes out well. I have given my best shot for the finals and I hope it will pay off. I hope everyhting works out well, that's all I ask for now. Please.
My parents are expecting a lot from me and I don't want to disappoint them. I want to show them that they can be proud of me. I offer everything to God. I lift it all to Him. I trust Him and I know he wont fail me.
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