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"you
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Hello there! My name's Iryn and this is my blog. You can read a lot about me
here - specifically my journals. I like blogging, it helps me relax and it
gives me comfort.
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- I've been on hiatus for some time now.
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- I'm currently enjoying what's left of the summer. Done with summer class.
Waiting for the another school year to begin. :D
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IRYNgrace. seventeen.
college junior.
ADZU, bsn.
Taken. :p
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numb...
So nothing and NO ONE could hurt me, the way I am hurting now... =(
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"until you find me, 11:03 AM |
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I am hanging on to a rope, one move and it's all over-- I fall... Yes. And what exactly am I thinking this very moment? NOTHING.....
I don't wanna be saved. I don't wanna ask for help. All I wanna do is let go, fall, and get this over with. I really wish that someone would save me the burden and cut off the rope already. I don't care what happens to me, all I know is I wouldn't know unless I get there as fast as I can. But what am I to do now? Let go or hold on? I honestly do not know. I just want to be free from all these. I am hurting very much. I never had this feeling since long time ago. And I am not my whole self anymore. Every piece of me has been shattered and nothing can bring them back together. Its as if a vase was thrown off a 10-story building-- There's nothing you can do to bring them back, no matter how hard you try. And in my case, I would rather stay unfixed than to get it fixed and regain the chance to experience it one more time. I'm tired. I've had enough. I want to quit. I want to end this..........
I just can't get hold of my emotions right now. I feel like breaking down and nothing's gonna make me feel better. Call me stupid, irrational, immature....I don't give a shit. Let me be. I am appointed to my own emotions and all I wanna do right now is to stop feeling what I am feeling. My mind is racing...Going through so much. I wonder when I would stop hurting. I don't know..... I am pissed. I am angry. But I am hurting more. It hit me through and through. I am left with no choice but to let go, get this over with, and put an end to everything.
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"until you find me, 11:12 PM |
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Nostalgia and A Whole Lot More |
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Reminiscing the days when we first both met, it was more than fate holding me back....
Those are the first lines to a song that I love to sing. Yes. Today I am blogging because I am walking down memory lane and I am feeling all sentimental about how our "love story" began. Corny as it may seem, we get this feeling a few times in our lives when we are, must I say, in love. It was the first week of classes and I was literally very psyched about becoming a college frosh. I saw new faces, met up with old pals, and got to know many different people. But among the people I met around school, there was someone who stood out and instantly caught my eye--yes, it was you. Our eyes met for a few seconds when we were going about our individual lives. You walked past me and I made my way to class. You were just a stranger to me but since then, I couldn't stop thinking about who you really were. I had the urge to get to know you. I wanted to know you.. The week went by and our paths kept crossing. I kept on seeing you around but I didn't know if you noticed me too. Our eyes always met, I felt butterflies, and all I could do was to look away. You were someone I couldn't get off my mind. I would tell my friends about you and we would all go "kilig" about it. Yes, I was very shallow then. Even the slightest glance from you turned my world upside down. You officially became my crush when I interviewed my friends about you. You were the reason why I stayed in school after class. You were the reason why I enjoyed walking around campus during breaks. And you were the reason why I was enjoying my first few days in college..The moment I knew that you asked for my number was the best minute of my life. I would trade anything just to repeat that moment over and over and over and over again... I immediately purchased load for my phone and waited with both hands cupped on my chin, for your reply. Call me desperate or flirty, I don't care. Late that night, we started texting. I even remember the very first message you sent me and you even misspelled my name. Hmmp. Bad impression. Bawas pogi points, please. We texted the whole night while I was watching PBB Season 2. Haha. Oh yes, I remember all those things pretty well. I stayed up late just to converse with you and I did not regret waking up with huge eyebags. Instead, I was very elated and I kept on reading your messages over and over. Hahaha! I was so in love. The days went by and I came to know you better. You seemed to be the most amazing person to me. It was fun unlocking mysteries about you and getting to know you was such an exciting, wonderful moment. But there was still so much I didn't know about you.After a month or so, we officially became a couple. Yaiks! I was very happy. My crush who also had a crush on me was now my boyfriend. Yaaaaaaay for that! :) Now back to reality.... Looking at us now, it makes me realize how much we've grown in this relationship. Due to the many trials that came our way, we both became stronger and more mature. We went past the I-need-to-know-your-whereabouts-every-minute stage. Trust was very important in this relationship. We trusted each other more and we accepted each other for who we truly are. Things now are a little more complicated than how it was before. Sometimes, I couldn't help but wish that we went back to that carefree, problem-free relationship before. But come to think of it, everything now is great. Despite the distance, we continue to grow stronger and mature. Our relationship has blossomed and everything that has happened is worth keeping and worth remembering. There is nothing in our relationship that I regret. I am very thankful that we are still together inspite of our problems. The future isn't that far enough as we may think it is, and I plan to spend every minute of it with you. :) I love you. ** Happy 21st monthsary, Babe!
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"until you find me, 12:12 PM |
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My top 2 summer getaways. :)
Dakak Beach ResortOoooh! I was here last year but I would still love to spend another summer vacation here. :)
BoracayWho would not want to set foot on this paradise? Well, not me, that's for sure. I would die to spend even just a week here. Haha! And I know that's gonna happen real soon (but not this summer though) :D Oh well, since I got summer classes that means I won't be able to go on vacation. How sad. I just hope that summer class would end earlier so maybe we could squeeze in even just a little time for vacation. But first I have to ask permission from my parents. Hehe. Oh pretty please. :)) I really could use a little bit of unwinding and relaxing. Psh.
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"until you find me, 10:31 AM |
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Let me give you a definition of "The Secret" which I got from Wikipedia.The Secret, a film produced by Prime Time Productions, consists of a series of interviews related to "The Law of Attraction". Okay, so when I first heard about The Secret, it was from my sister. Her friend introduced this to her and told her about how it really worked for her. So, my sister decided to check it out since there was nothing wrong if she did it. And when I got to watch it for myself, I also found out that the movie was about how we view life and how positive we are about it. It's simple, we just have to live, love life, and always have positive thoughts for what we think will always reflect what will happen to us. The Secret reveals the most powerful law in the universe. The knowledge of this law has run like a golden thread through the lives and the teachings of all the prophets, seers, sages and saviors in the world's history, and through the lives of all truly great men and women. All that they have ever accomplished or attained has been done in full accordance with this most powerful law.Without exception, every human being has the ability to transform any weakness or suffering into strength, power, perfect peace, health, and abundance.Rhonda Byrne's discovery of The Secret began with a glimpse of the truth through a 100 year old book. She went back through centuries, tracing and uncovering a common truth that lay at the core of the most powerful philosophies, teachings and religions in the world.What Rhonda discovered is now captured in The Secret, a film that has been viewed by millions around the world. The Secret has also been released as an audio-book and printed book with more than six million copies in print.The Secret reveals the natural law that is governing all lives. By applying the knowledge of this law, you can change every aspect of your life.This is the secret to prosperity, health, relationships and happiness. This is the secret to life. --http://www.thesecret.tv/Labels: random realizations emotions |
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