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"you
are
my
fairtyale
that
doesn't
end
at
midnight."
Hello there! My name's Iryn and this is my blog. You can read a lot about me
here - specifically my journals. I like blogging, it helps me relax and it
gives me comfort.
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- I've been on hiatus for some time now.
- Most of my recent posts can be found here CLICK.
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- I'm currently enjoying what's left of the summer. Done with summer class.
Waiting for the another school year to begin. :D
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IRYNgrace. seventeen.
college junior.
ADZU, bsn.
Taken. :p
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I miss him, I miss "us"-- and this is an understatement. I miss him so much but what I miss the most is how we used to be. Things have changed a lot and I can't seem to keep up with how they are moving. I keep my feet buried on the ground - I don't want to move, I want things to be the way they were - when everything was simple and carefree. For a moment, I simply want to turn back time. To when everything was candies and apples, when we would hold each other's hands and take life's surprises hand in hand. I miss those times when I had him by my side everyday, when he was always within reach. But he seems so far away now. A thousand miles away from me. We have been like this for a year or so, but it just doesn't seem to get better. Everyday is a heartache. I wake up thinking that I won't get to spend the day with him, I won't get to feel his touch, to feel the comfort of his embrace. I want to feel him. I try my very best to keep a cheerful mood but sometimes (like now), it just gets to my system and I start feeling miserable. I can't do anything about that now. I simply have to digest the fact that things have changed and I have to live life the way it is; and stop dwelling on the past. Things are tougher and more complicated now. It's all a part of growing up and learning new lessons. After all, everything's a gamble. We learn from our mistakes and grow from them. Life offers us a lot of choices; our happiness depends upon how we choose to take life - the easy way or the difficult way. I guess everything just has its time. And I can wait until the time comes for us to be together again - ugh and I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
I know I should be happy - I am happy. Having him in my life is enough reason for me to become happy (even more). But there are times when I simply want what most of us desire - to be in his arms and savor every waking minute that you are together, to look into his eyes and tell him how much he means. Dreams. That's what I am full of now. I am full of dreams and wishes and hopes. I keep counting the days until we're together again, dreaming of how ecstatic life would be having him around.
This may sound very mushy for those who aren't in my situation. Spare me, I am entitled to become emotional once in a while. I do miss my boyfriend and i would trade anything just to be with him again. I love him so much that I won't let this distance get in the way, this won't make me give up. He feels the same way too, I believe. I can't wait until I can feel him again. 'til then, we just have to keep going, live our lives and keep chasing our dreams. Yep, nothing's gonna change how I feel towards him.
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P.S. I post most of my entries here -- http://iryngracie.multiply.com You can go check my other posts there. Thank You! I missed Blogger.
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